Bonjour Ma Belle, sudah dua tahun ini aku memutuskan pindah domisili ke bandung dari jakarta. Awalnya aku berfikir itu berarti aku give up sama hobby ku dateng ke event dan menulis blog, karena aku di bandung ga kenal siapa siapa. Mungkin akan dapet sesekali by online, pikirku. 

Ternyata gak lama aku tau ada komunitas Bandung Beauty Blogger. gak pikir panjang aku langsung daftar jadi member. Long story short, aku di hub untuk masuk ke komunitas nya. 

Bukan cuma sekedar bisa datang ke event, nulis dan kumpul bareng, aku bener bener dapat teman baru disini. Dan kemarin langsung bisa partisipasi di acara 2nd Aniversary Bandung Beauty Blogger. 

Banyak banget brand yang berbaik hati sponsor kami, bener bener bikin tambah seru! Berikut Recap acara dan Goodies yang aku dapat dari Bandung Beauty Blogger!

1. Avoskin 

Jangan takut, pengelupasannya tidak seperti terbakar kok, sangat gentle di kulit aku. Miraculous Refining Serum ini bisa digunakan di kulit acne prone. Selain itu sudah Cruelty free, No animal testing, tidak menggunakan parfum dan paraben. 

Brand ini lagi hits karena sebentar lagi akan keluarin kolaborasi bareng Inivindy, langsung dong kepo. Eh pas banget dapet lipstick dari mereka dan aku coba enak!

9. Ever After Party Planner

"Is there any chance to strangers like us talk in a daily basis?" You asked.

Knowing your particular being was an instant click in my universe, unlike others that I've met before. I wish time just stopped so I could cherish the laugh forever. Oh, I wish it lasts forever.

Months after our first conversation, we literally talk in daily basis. 

You pulled me away from my rotten past, you gave me smile when I clung onto what makes me thinking that i just don't deserve happiness. You brought me up to the point where I feel as If only you can truly understand me. 

I almost forgot about my poor fate and miserable life. I was very - very happy. It has been magical moments until today, when suddenly you think our time is up, and you told me to find my own happiness.

But how could I?

When nothing makes me happier, but you ?

I know that maybe you're dealing with your own nightmares. 

I know you were finding your way.

I know you had to lose me to have it.

For everything, I would fight for you ... but right now, I am no Jeanne d’Arc who always win the battle - for this battle was long lost even before it's begun.

Then maybe, letting you go is the only key left for me to put a smile onto your face.

If only I know the spell to reverse the sunset into sunrise, I'll  protect you from harms and hurt from lovers and life.

I'll drink the tears shed from your eyes, and kiss your scars so it’ll heal at no time. 

I wish I had the poison to trick the time, so I could find you sooner and love you longer.

I wish I could met you when my life is in the Spring. Then maybe, I would have the courage to convince you to stay here with me.

If only we met when we were younger, when our heart were free and happy,  I would love you more passionately like fire - I would love you better than the God of Night loves the moon.

But right now, I don’t have the courage to tell you what I really feel about you.

Cause what if it gives you unnecessary pressure and leave, or even worse, hate me?

Every spoken or unspoken word has consequences, but silly me, I almost forget that basic rules.

Never in my dream, that i’ll lose my whole love be drawn by my own tears and fear of losing you.

So until our last time, I don't tell you what I really feel about you.

Let's put the final stop into our story, even thought I believe that we are not supposed to end like this, but my minds tricked me into thinking that it would be better to let you go long way before you do.

Fun fact: if you sign the deal with the same ‘Balthazar’ as me, you'll understand.

Even though we hide the words to each other, and despite the way it ends, we secretly understand the unspoken ones, do we ?

We gave each other something we couldn't name, that any love birds would know :)

Thank you for your presence, even at my worst. I hope to see you in another page of life - soon. 

XX, 

Kania Dachlan

A letter for the best Mother on earth  ( English Version ) 

Dear Mom,

As I think of all the gifts and treasures this world has to offer, I am reminded that I have been given the most priceless gift … you.

I know raising me was not easy, I see you trying to grab extra hours at work so that you can afford my education. I see you wearing those clothes you’ve had for years so that you can buy me new clothes. You always put me before yourself. 

You never gave up on the things that I needed and continued to give me more than I ever deserved. I have to admit that growing up with a single parent is not easy too, but the strength, unconditional love, and support that you gave me was more than any two parents could ever fulfill.

 I never looked at having a single-parent as a disadvantage, because I got to brag about how awesome my one parent was. Your unconditional love has made me understand what love truly is. You gave me double the love that I ever needed and deserved. It was more than making me feel loved ; it was teaching me that even through the difficult situations, I am loved. 

You constantly showed me to find the good in life, even when it was even hard to find yourself.  I can’t tell you enough how much it meant to me that you were always next to me with a smile on your face, encouraging me to be the best person I could possibly be. 

As I get older, I realize that I should take time to thank you for the countless things you did in my life. But when I think about it, a simple thank you is not enough. It is more than a thank you. It’s the words that I can’t put together just knowing that you are in my life. 

Today, on mother's day, I am searching something pretty for the gift, thanks God I found it at Asmaraku. I can order it online and costomize everything in one click. A pretty blomming flower box with a night cream from Ponds that you needed wrapped in a box. I thought it's a perfect gift for you, bunda. 

At the end of the day, when I know everything else in my life may not be constant, I know you always will be. It is impossible to put into words everything I should be thankful for. But Thank you, Bunda. I love you.


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Une lettre pour la meilleure mère du monde (Traduire en français)


Comme je pense à tous les dons et tous les trésors que le monde à offrir, je me rapelle à un cadeau le plus précieux que j'avais reçu.. C'est toi.

Je sais bien que m'élever n'était pas facile. Je vois que tu essaies de prendre des heures supplénentaires au travail pour que tu puisses me donner une excellente éducation. Je te vois porter les vêtements que tu avais eu depuis des années afin que tu puisses m'acheter de nouveaux vêtements. Tu me mets toujours devant toi. 

Tu n'as jamais abandonné sur les choses dont j'avais besoin, et même continuer de me donner plus que j'ai jamais mérité. Je dois admettre que grandir avec un parent seul n'est pas facile aussi. Mais la force, l'amour inconditionnel et le soutien que tu m'as donné était plus que deux parents pourraient faire. 

Je n'ai jamais regardé d'avoir un parent seul comme un inconvenient, car je devrais m'enorgueillir à tout le monde comment mon parent seul était vraiment impressionnant. Ton amour inconditionnel m'a fait comprendre sur ce qui est le vrai amour. Tu m'as donné le double de l'amour dont j'avais besoin et que je méritais. C'était plus que me faire sentir bien-aimée. Il m'apprenait que même dans les situations pires, je suis toujours aimée. 

Tu m'as constamment montré à trouver le bon dans la vie, même quand il était difficile de se trouver. Je ne peux pas te dire suffisament que ce soit précieux pour moi de savoir que tu es toujours là avec le sourire, que tu m'encourages pour être la meilleure personne que je puisse être. À mesure que je grandis, je me rends compte que je devrais te remercier pour tous les innombrables choses que tu as fait au long de ma vie. 

Mais je sais un simple merci ne suffit jamais. C'est plus qu'un remerciement. Ce sont les mots que je ne peux pas les mettre ensemble en sachant que tu es toujours dans ma vie. Et même quand je sais que toutes les choses dans ma vie ne seraient pas constantes, je sais que tu la seras. C'est tellement impossible de mettre en mots tout ce que je devrais remercier. Mais merci, maman. Je t'aime.

Ketemu orang ini semacam takdir, ya begitu aja. Dimulai dari accidentaly dia pacaran sama sahabat-nya Teguh, satu kosan bareng, ah pokonya kaya … it just happens.

Mungkin klo kalian follow sosmed aku, kalian akan familiar sama Duwi, dia lagi dia lagi. Sebanyak apapun temen aku, klo mesti mention who’s the best aku akan jawab nama dia in many condition. Sejujurnya biarpun aku punya banyak “temen deket” , selalu ada gap dan awkward klo aku cuma berduaan dengan orang lain selain Duwi. Pada awalnya itu juga yang aku rasain saat awal main berdua Dina. Kaya …. duh ngapain lagi ya. Belum nemu click-nya aja. Terlebih Dina anaknya kalem dan baik banget. Tapi lama kelamaan, bisa blend gt aja. I do enjoy spending my time with her now.

To be honest, aku adalah orang yang super sensitive yang bisa merasakan : Oh ini orang gak suka sama aku kayanya (mostly everytime hahaha anaknya negative thinking dan gak pede-an) dan ada juga orang yang pertama ketemu langsung oh this people seems nice, kayanya gak malu jalan sama aku, dan gak terganggu sama kerempongan aku HAHA. And that's her. Even yes, we're in the some circle karena pacarnya dia adalah temen deketnya Teguh, aku bukan type orang yang "I have to get close with my boyfriend's friend" jadi klo gak cocok ya diem diem aja, klo cocok ya baru bisa deket banget. Bahkan bisa jadi akrab banget. Sebenernya bukan-nya gak mau mingle atau apa sih, itu dia anaknya harus diajakin, harus diramahin duluan baru mau open sama orang. Kare seceria apapun terlihat, dee down aku anaknya sangat gak pede-an dan takutnya ganggu aja.

Awal jalan, keliatan banget perbedaan kita. Preference sih. Dina yang anakanya natural banget sementara aku yang suka banget make-up. Dina yang anaknya casual, aku yang suka banget pake high heels dan dress. Dina yang anaknya baik, aku yang anaknya EDM- bgt #LAH hahahaha maksudnya kita beda banget deh. Cuma at the end, bukan Dina jadi ikut ikutan gaya aku atau kebalikannya jadi kita temenan deket, tapi kita belajar menghargai satu sama lain tanpa memaksakan apa yang kita suka. Itu yang paling penting. Kita cari tempat yang sama sama kita suka, kadang aku nemenin dia belanja kadang dia nemenin aku hunting spot-spot foto ketje.

Aku belajar temenan itu bukan pasrah nerima apa yang temen kita mau kemudian enek dan meledak, justru temen adalah orang yang bisa diajak sharing dan diskusi, orang yang tanpa diminta willing buat sesekali ngelakuin apa yang kita suka dan kemudian gantian, sebaliknya akan kita senengin. Sama Dina, aku bisa bilang aku gak suka sesuatu, atau nggak just like i talked with Duwi. Dan meskipun belum ada satu tahun kita deket, tapi aku sudah nyaman banget sama Dina. Terlalu romantis ya ? hahaha maksudnya, yah I like that girl. Tanpa mesti dikasih tau detail, she knows when I'am not okay. 

I don’t know where we’re gonna be five years from now, but I pray to God we’re still in each other life. Happy Birthday sweet pie, thank you for showing up in my life.